A tempest within....

"Sometimes I feel I’m better off dead
Cause there is so much emptiness in my head
There is lack of inspiration
There is lack of a companion
Someone to share my fear
Someone to share my desire
There is lack of struggle
There is lack of strength ..... its not that its not there
But its like a fire which is still to be kindled

The fire is not burning ....... Inspiration still to be found
And the emptiness keeps getting profound
The search for the reason seems never ending
Reason for the very existence ....... Reason for this biological cycle
Reason for the clocks ticking .......Reason for people hoping
Reason for everyone getting... closer to something unknown
and then letting it go..... for something unreasonable
so again I come to the same point
To distinguish between wrong and right
Is it right to live or is it wrong to die?
Cause both things are so inevitable
That existence of a human in all this seems so inexplainable!!! "








This is a poem I wrote.... I guess in 2000 or something....when I was going through a difficult patch in my academic career .... I never came up with the title for this poem, until Sridhar gave it !!

We live .... to Prove !!

I was lying down yesterday looking at the blue sky and a thought came to my mind.
How many number of proofs I collect, preserve, present and claim everyday?

I get a wrong bill from my telephone company, I call them up and "prove" to them that I paid the bill, by looking at the proof which I preserved ... the reciept of bill payment !!

I go everyday to office, work for the whole day and end of the day , I write the "timesheet", a proof that I was there in the office !! Even while I enter the office I sign in or swap in or whtever just as a proof !!

We are born and first thing we get is "Birth certificate" , a proof that you are born !!

We are so much into this proof keeping habit that nowadays it happens involuntarily !!
..... you wanna bet?...
.... yea sure !!
.... Hey "XYZ", you saw what "UVW" jst put a bet on ??
A proof, of who put a bet on what??

Even our relationships need proofs...
remembering the birthday or anniversary or first date ....is proof enough that you are serious about that person !!?

even after we are dead .... the most important thing remains is to get the "Death Certificate"...a "Proof" that you are now officially,legally DEAD !!!!!

Eavesdropping on the Universe !

Are we alone in the universe??
Well to find that our SETI is now going to try another method of eavesdropping on Alien Communication !!
Refer: http://www.cfa.harvard.edu/press/pr0701.html

Well... so far so good... but I wonder why such a passive kind of effort??

Why dont we send signals in a radius of about 30 light years in specific pattern so that we will be heard??
Will this method be more active and direct??

New year begins ....hurray..... so whats the big deal ??

We are still going to waste food, still going to break rules, still going to burn the garbage and pollute the environment !!

Whats the big deal about starting a new year?...

Oh no ...am not being cynical !!
I am just saying, are we really welcoming a new year in true sense?

I feel new year should be treated as a "second chance".
Chance to prove yourself, chance to live a better life, chance to correct/mend things , chance to learn different things.

From the new year resolve to reduce pollution. Use good fuel , keep ur vehicles in good condition so that they dont pollute, dont smoke, dont spit on public property, dont burn garbage !! Atleast this can be done on personal level.

Saddam Hanged !! .... The best U.S. can offer??

Such a pity !!
Saddam hussain got a punishment which is the inevitable truth of life !!.... Death !
Everyone is finally going to die.. giving someone a forced death can not be a punishment !

I am really surprised to see the lack of imagination , creativity or perhaps common sense in this sort of decision.

well.... I would say Saddam won in the end ! He managed to get the easiest of death !